Musings: 12/29/19

redirecting my focus on things that are tangible 

I have a few passion projects up my sleeve

2020 is the year of expansion

feels good to not be living a lie

many find comfort in a false sense of...

smiling in the midst of  d e l u s i o n

lol

thank god for discernment, 

wisdom to know better

and courage to move

I choose not to prolong my suffering

everything solid over here.

( SIDE NOTE: loving this self-realization book that was gifted to me, made out of stars x meera lee patel... committed to becoming the best possible version of myself, for myself )

I woke up this morning to a barrage of posts about today being the first day of Lent (March 5th- April 17th). Already?! After so much thought and preparation went into last years trying (albeit, successful) sacrifice, it's a wonder that I let today slip my mind. I spent my drive in to work scrambling to find something to give up this year.

Red meat? So three years ago.

Soda? Barely partake in that. 

Twitter and Instagram? Already checked those.

And then it came to me. Instead of taking away something that I stand a greater chance of going back to once this all has ended, why not add on something that I can take with me beyond my Lent challenge? I've decided that this year I want to challenge myself to pay more attention to where my mind wanders, to speak more on my blessings than my downfalls, and to praise even in my misfallings because I know that therein lies growth. I also plan to develop and stick to a daily exercise regimen.

Adding positive habits to my life will not only be a refreshing challenge, which is a big part of this, but it will also help me to take steps toward becoming the person that I ultimately want to be. I pray that like last year, the results will be lasting and I know that with the right mindstate and sticking to my plan, they will.

Stumbled upon this cool post on WhitneyEnglish.com, check it out here. I'm going to try to start taking the time to put effort into the little things this year, like writing thank you notes, that make a big impact.



I don't push my thoughts or views on anyone

And I don't look down on others for not seeing the world the way that I do

I appreciate every opinion or viewpoint for what it is 

And it took a lot of time and growth in myself to become this way

I've learned more about who I want to be by viewing certain traits in others that I didn't want to become.

Nobody's perfect.

I'm learning,

You're learning

We can all learn and grow at our own pace

On our own personal levels of awareness and one day hopefully learn to respect that of others. 

Growth,

Enlightenment,

It's meant to be shared. 

( SIDE NOTE: In the new year I'm going to stop trying to be everything to everyone. )

 So I took a moment to peruse my very first blog today, (which I'm surprised is still up, I must add) and came across some wise words from my twenty- one year old self. It's amazing how times change but we can still relearn the same lessons.