don't run when happiness finds you

don't duck and hide

revel in the moment

enjoy the space

you deserve to be here

be.



down for you x ta ku,

the latest song that I can't stop playing

who are you

with the light's off

behind closed doors

when no one knows that the identity is yours

when out of town

unidentified

which parts do you show

what parts do you hide

 

 

 

.... and why?

 

 

 

 

 

shari renee

The Deep End

Let life break your heart

until your heart becomes

unbreakable.

Try. Fail. Risk.

Jump off the deep end.

 

There are no conditions to love.

And no end to it's depths.

 

-Jeff Foster

 

 

( SIDE NOTE: I've discovered a new obsession with Ancient Egyptian culture. Currently taking in everything I can find on the subject. )

Full poem here

Writing Prompt: How Do You Express Yourself?

I express myself

through the joy that spills out of me in a sing song voice

rather than words simply spoken

the slight dance in my seat when the food is too good to enjoy sitting still

through the sway of my hips as I walk up to him

smile on my lips

butterflies as I plant a kiss on his grin

through the shy glance that I give when everything's not alright

the sternness in my voice when a subject arises for which

I'd fight

the clothes on my back

every shade, cut and color

the style of my hair

influenced by none other

the weight on my shoulders when times are too tough to bare

through the inflection in my voice as excitement squeals out of me

as I sulk on the couch

and hide tears that I don't want the world to see

through the embrace that I give after too much time spent apart

the tighter I squeeze,

the dearer to my heart

I express myself

when I press pen to paper

capturing moments in time

with every line

after a long day

ordering vodka, no chaser

at the top of my lungs as I belt out my favorite tune

as I strut through the place like there is no one else in the room

I express myself through the color of my nails

through the battles that I choose

the markings on my body
that I will never lose

my expressions are dramatic

and at times rather subtle

my expressions are mine, no room for rebuttal

-shari renee

Take Me Away

take me away

to where palm trees

provide shade,

where sun rays radiate

a Midas' touch on my skin

reflection on my outer

of my glow from within,

wanderlust stricken

with no other cure

I feel like I'm stuck in this cocoon

of a room

drowning in familiarity

I need to break free soon.

feeling my last gasp of

 tedious monotony

ho hum hurrahs,

commonplace consistencies

will never be enough

to cure

this bore

that has taken over me,

I need to feel liberated

experience things I've never seen.

to strive to survive

outside of the box of desolate despondency,

these average expectations I will never see

because they will never be

me.

 

 

shari renee

 



Ectotherm

the light at the other end of the tunnel is blinding

so much easier to go back the way I came

walking toward the unknown

vision impaired

but it feels so natural,

so right

how can I look away

from such a beautiful light

how can I stray

luring me in with her warmth

a chill on my back

I glance over my shoulder

so many layers to be shed

should I forge ahead

and still,

ectotherm.

3/2/14

shari renee

Tupac is Coming to Broadway

Major.

"Thoughts on an Airplane Napkin"

So fucking noisy

The chatty 20-something's surrounding on this plane

Chatter on and on about their happy go lucky lives

Phil can't wait to surprise his girlfriend in Atlanta

And Kat just got promoted at her job...

The plane bounces along 

Engine roars outside my window

Sun beams in my eyes

But no sound louder than the thoughts clouding my mind

I hate feeling anxious. 

Only certain people have this affect on me

Or should I say person

The plane makes its bouncy descent down the runway 

We're up next

And next for me is reuniting with you

The same you who still has the ability to make me feel

after all this time,

... against my will.

Because my will isn't free with you

It's been nine months since I've touched your skin

And as I sit here writing this 

I can't help but wonder will it feel the same?

What will I say, 

What will you say?

Our conversations have been few and far between as of late

I'm to blame.

It seemed easier to run from you then to be sucked back into your web 

But here I am.

On this plane.

Waiting.

Walking a thin line,

knowing there's a chance I can get tangled up again 

Waiting.

to travel clear across the country

In search of a break from the reality that's overwhelmed me 

Because that's all it'll be

Distraction...

Or will it?

A taste of a fantasy 

long shot down 

a coma

But it's still breathing..

Lift off.

I ignored that text a few weeks ago,

it was the right thing to do to protect my soul.

It's crazy, the way you touched me you'll never know,

still hear your words in my head that encourage me to grow.

I was so closed off, and all you wanted to do was open me,

put me on to new things, show me things in me that I couldn't see.

I see things a lot clearer now, but I still can't let you in,

things are so different now

between us

well, the us that used to be

or almost was

never fully manifested because I looked you over

now it's over

ps. you were the only one my mother really approved of

words on a page

the relationship we never had

mutual friends

cool with mom and dad

reminiscing on the past

... because

you

have

a

past

full of memories that last and last.

while your and my tale was never really written

a rough draft

a sequel, with no real beginning

never made it to print

thrown in the "no" pile

all the while

still craving her smile

the one that could never do any wrong

despite all the sins you spoke of

you always were the type to prefer thrillers over romantic comedies

like the romantic comedy,

or thought of you and me

but there was that one time you laughed.

too much pressure

too much pressure

I don't want to be in love

too strong a feeling

would bring (on) too much healing

and I like the way I was...

much rather be alone

that way no one can ever leave me

although you've showed me time and time again..

I prefer that no one ever need me.



composed Mar 2013

Shari Renee