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At times I'm impatient

with no need to rush

I can make something out of nothing

with no need to fuss

At times I'm belligerent

always at war

but if only you could see

its out of insecurity towards me

myself

so much pressure that I've had to endure

to please those around me

happiness ensure

There are times when I can be

too tightly wound

and all the stressors around me are

too easily found

Life’s frustrations bring a tear to my eye

At times its too much to handle

And I don’t want to try

These are my flaws

The makers of me

The small imperfections

I don't want you to see

composed

©sharirenee 2011
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“You are now at a crossroads. This is your opportunity to make the most important decision you will ever make. Forget your past. Who are you now? Who have you decided you really are now? Don't think about who you have been. Who are you now? Who have you decided to become? Make this decision consciously. Make it carefully. Make it powerfully.”

-Anthony Robbins

outdoor concerts/ music festivals

skin
cut-offs

crops

florals

skin
roof top gatherings
bandeaus
coral

golden skin

flowy blouses

travel

pastels

white

road trips
skin
outdoor dining
knees
top down
picnics
a/c

“In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.”

-Michael Jackson

sparkling moscato

late night convo

valentine confirmation

awkward encounters

vinyls

highway robbery

literally

martin marathons

thrifting

release
+++

Two Words: I'm going.

23.
What's in a number?
That's left to be said, but in my case this number is quickly approaching..
beating on my door of uncertainty.
I still haven't figured it all out
Youth?
Middle-aged?
Ticking time bomb.
Jordan.

It was AMAZING.

Pictures Coming Soon.

;)

I'm learning not to take things so personal. It's working for me.

Read:

"The Five Love Languages"

Gary Chapman

Dr. Gary Chapman, Christian counselor and author of The Five Love Languages, writes about the importance of being able to express love to your spouse in a way that your spouse can understand. He calls this type of communicating using the five love languages.

Words of Affirmation:

This is when you say how nice your spouse looks, or how great the dinner tasted. These words will also build your mate's self image and confidence.

Quality Time:
Some spouses believe that being together, doing things together and focusing in on one another is the best way to show love. If this is your partner's love language, turn off the TV now and then and give one another some undivided attention.

Gifts:

It is universal in human cultures to give gifts. They don't have to be expensive to send a powerful message of love. Spouses who forget a birthday or anniversary or who never give gifts to someone who truly enjoys gift giving will find themselves with a spouse who feels neglected and unloved.

Acts of Service:

Discovering how you can best do something for your spouse will require time and creativity. These acts of service like vacuuming, hanging a bird feeder, planting a garden, etc., need to be done with joy in order to be perceived as a gift of love.

Physical Touch:

Sometimes just stroking your spouse's back, holding hands, or a peck on the cheek will fulfill this need.

( SIDENOTE: I occasionally give in to mass chain letters. A little extra luck can't hurt. Right? )





My life is one giant oxymoron
Wearing O.P.I. "Miso Happy With This Color"
Excited to be spending the weekend in NY with my sorority sisters for our 103rd founders day
Typing that just made me smile :)
In the words of Angela Simmons, this week| month| year will be about "Letting go"
High expectations
C.R.E.A.M.
23.
Positive affirmations only work if you truly believe.
Stranger in the dark.

( SIDENOTE: If I don't get a new tattoo or piercing soon I'm going to have to cut| dye my hair. I can't take this much regularity. )

flaws embraced, wanton desires of perfection erased

a smile on my face

no longer a part of the chase

instead I take my own stride

as an individual I rise.

©sharirenee 2011

All rights reserved

misconstrued

confused

abused

used

up

our course has been ran

feelings aban

doned

reconciliation

shunned

over,

done

©sharirenee 2011
All rights reserved






I've been having a recurring dream for the past couple of nights which triggered a curiosity in me to find what it could possibly mean. The recurring figure in my dreams - strangely - spiders. I google searched, and came across the "Dream Moods Dictionary," a website that interprets what certain images in dreams mean, and found that spiders are representativie of several things that I could relate to my life right now. Below is an excerpt from the site.

"To see a spider in your dream, indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or perhaps you want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power or an overbearing mother figure in your life. Alternatively, a spider refers to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider in your dream, then it symbolizes misfortune and bad luck.

To see a spider spinning a web in your dream, signifies that you will be rewarded for your hard work. You will be promoted in your job or recognized for your achievement in a difficult task. Spiders are also a symbol of creativity due to the intricate webs they spin. On a negative note, spiders may indicate a feeling of being entangled or trapped in a sticky or clingy relationship. It represents some ensnaring and controlling force. You feel that someone or some situation is sucking the life right out of you. Alternatively, if a spider is spinning a web in your dream, then it could be a metaphor for the world wide web and global communication.

To see a spider climbing up a wall in your dream, denotes that your desires will be soon be realized.

To dream that you are bitten by a spider, represents a conflict with your mother or some dominant female figure in your life. The dream may be a metaphor for a devouring mother or the feminine power to possess and entrap. Perhaps you are feeling trapped by some relationship.

To eat a spider or dream that a spider is in your mouth, symbolizes your control over a situation. You are not afraid to exert your dominance in a relationship."

As much as “locals” of the area hate the term, it is the best descriptor of where I’m “from”. I was born in Washington, DC, spent a few years in Maryland, before ultimately crash landing in Virginia after my parents divorced. Summers and weekends were spent with my father in Clinton, Md, where I was lucky enough to grow up in the same house that we still live in to this day. My mother moved around significantly more. Through the course of my elementary education I attended 4 different schools… roughly a new school every year until we finally settled in a small town called Herndon. I feel as though all of the moves that I experienced early in life had some kind of effect on my ability to develop “long-term” relationships, but that’s another story for another time.

The area itself, although representative of three separate entities (D.C., Maryland and northern Virginia), is ridiculously small and would surely require less than six degrees of separation to tie everyone in the area to one another. This is becoming more and more apparent as the days go on. Don’t get me wrong, I love where I’m from. The area is chock full of beautiful scenery that can only be found in the DMV, it is adorned with museums, monuments, eateries, shopping… it is a wonderful place to grow up and I couldn’t ask for a better place to have “raised me.” However, like any young twenty-something that grows weary of hometown life, I am ready to move on and discover uncharted territories… a change of scenery, if you will.

Lately, I’ve been tossing back and forth the concept of completely dropping everything and starting over; a new location, faces, and memories to be made. My logic is that there is no better time than now. At this point in my life I am single, free of any real responsibilities (ie. Children, career, etc.) or anchors holding me down to this area.

When darkness turns to light

( SIDENOTE: I love this. "What you put up with, you end up with. Remember: You can only EXPECT what you ACCEPT from people." -Tyrese via Twitter )