( SIDE NOTE: I decided that my goal before going into the new year is to forgive all of the people in my life who have caused me any type of pain - a kind of 'end of year' resolution if you will. It takes a lot of real conversations with yourself to tap into the reason why you may be letting a person or situation weigh so heavy on your heart… and many times it isn't until you've had these conversations that you realize some of the feelings are still lingering with you. It's up to you to decide if you're in a place to free yourself (because it's only you that a grudge is hindering) and let the hurt go.
Before I began, I promised that I'd be honest with myself in my forgiveness. I sat down and ran a list through my head of all of the people that have brought me any kind of significant, lasting grief throughout the years; and one by one asked myself if I could forgive them, truly. It brought up a lot of repressed feelings and caused me to recognize that some of the experiences I went through were for my protection and progression. Even in all of my efforts,I realized that there was a small number of people that I simply was not ready to forgive; it was either too fresh or ran too deep, and I didn't want to lie to myself for the purpose of being able to say I have a clear conscience. This is not a 'fake it until you make it' situation. They say when you hold on to things you're not harming anyone but yourself, which I wholeheartedly believe to be true. I have given myself a month to do some serious soul searching in order to start the new year with a fresh slate. I encourage everyone to consciously make efforts to let go of the hurt and resentment that is unknowingly eating away at so many people. Although I have not lifted all of the weight off of my shoulders, I'm proud of myself for beginning the process. I feel much lighter.
The title to this post makes it seem like my weekend consisted of more than it actually did. My baby Kim flew in town to surprise our little sister (and her "number" -sorority lingo) for her housewarming. It was a great excuse to get everyone under one roof and enjoy drinks, laughs and good company; not to mention celebrating a super chic condo and Kim's exciting new career move. I love seeing my loved ones doing well. Can't wait to see what the next few months have in store.
( SIDE NOTE: I love being able to play with the look of a septum piercing without the commitment. There's plenty of them out there. Etsy has the best ones.)
These have been on my reading list for a while now, as well as the two mentioned below. (Which I'm more excited about because they were actually sold out.) I'm beginning with Malcolm Gladwell's, "The Tipping Point." Feel free to read along, or if you have any other good book suggestions leave them in the comments.
This weekend didn't go quite as planned, but everything works itself out in the end. I've been meaning to make my way to the Hirshhorn Museum and Sculpture Garden for a couple of months now.. mostly for Barbra Krueger's "Belief and Doubt," (the black, red and white words in the first couple of pics posted) which was plastered all over instagram, and was everything I thought it'd be. Pretty cool museum overall; looking forward to the future exhibitions.
"I'm going to make everything around me beautiful -- that will be my life." - Elsie de Wolfe
spiritual breakthrough/ soul cleansing
the last two weeks = sweet serendipity
so many signs/ messages fell into my lap
no longer "needing" my wants.
don't let the vibes fool ya
I love art and I love creating because when I'm in my zone my mind doesn't wander.. I'm very much present and attuned to what it is that I'm doing.
"You're Not Good Enough" x Blood Orange
I think I've reached my ratchet limit with this song. you've been warned.
The Ukraine has been showing my blog mad love ♥
been a while since I've baked cookies.. or anything really
trying a fish pedicure for the first time tomorrow
If there's one thing I've learned in the past year it's the importance of timing
I used to pray for certain things, certain scenarios, and be disappointed when they didn't work out in my favor. Over time it brought me to a point where I didn't know what to pray for.. where I didn't feel like I had any say in the direction of my life because my prayers weren't being answered
…or so it seemed.
I decided to take a different approach and shorten my prayer to one thing:
There comes a time in life where you
start to realize that even after all the fall outs, best friends/new friends,
loyalties tested, mended and (seemingly) forever broken, hardships, laughter,
tears, make-ups and break-ups there are still more to come. As much as you may
feel comfortable with all of the people in your life at the moment (or
uncomfortable even) some of the most significant relationships of your life may
be ahead of you. Everything in life is temporary and your best friend today may
fade into an associate years down the line, while someone you walk
past daily may one day have a starring role in your life.
You just never know how your life is
going to play out. This past year has showed me that in more ways than one. You
can cross paths with someone that you never even fathomed having anything in
common with, yet alone a conversation... to find yourself speaking multiple
times a day and falling in love. All the while someone you had
so much deep love and admiration for can turn into someone that you barely know - or
want to - in the blink of an eye. We grow, we change and that's what we're here
to do. Trying to keep someone in your life past their welcome is detrimental to
all parties involved. Save yourself the headache, and look forward to what’s to
We never know what people are sent
into our life for; season/reason/lifetime, and unfortunately (or
fortunately depending on how you look at it) many of them will be lessons. And
that's not to sound like a bitter 'the cup's half empty' kind of person,
it's more so to draw attention to the fact that change is okay. Letting things
and people go is perfectly fine. Seasons come and seasons go. You wouldn't try
wearing a leather jacket at the peak of summer, would you?